Colour Splash Photoshoot

Alright, I know that I just posted, but to lighten the mood a little I thought that I would do a quick post sharing some photos that I took of two of my good friends at school. I have this setting on my camera where you can select one colour and only that colour shows up in the photo. So I took Meadow and Margo and took a couple pictures. I really like them and hope to use them for a portfolio for University. Note: Click picture to enlarge.

In this one I chose the orange of Meadow's shoe lace and went down to get the shot on her leg

 I then decided that I wanted to get a macro shot, focusing on her shoe and letting her face and body blur in the background

 Ignore my shadow. But other than this I really like the shot. I got my models to look away from the camera, and selected the yellow stripes as a colour.

 This is my favorite shot of them together. I got both Margo and Meadow to look the same way and lift the rest of their body off of the wall, only their upper back touching the wall. Love love love it!

 Meadow's face is just so awesome in this picture. Plus I love the angle of the camera and the way that she is holding her arms.

 My two models were amazing! I got her to lift her arm and again not look at the camera.

 She did this one on her own. I merely captured her beauty with my camera.

 I love this one too. They look so pretty with their little flowers. I tried to get them in their hair, but the stems were too short. So we settled for this shot

 The only thing that I don't like about this picture in the fact that I can see people behind my beautiful model. Other than that I love the angle of her body.

 Yay for my beautiful and willing models, and thank-you for giving my permission to post these pictures on my blog. Love you guys, and I hope that you like them :)

Catching Up With Me

Life is really starting to catch up with me lately. Since my dad left I never really thought of the possibility of my mom dating again. It was just a foreign thing that I didn't have to worry about. But now my mom is dating another guy, and it just seems to surreal for me. I have never seen her with anyone but my dad and seeing her with this new guy just really isn't registering with me. He is a nice guy and all, much better than my actual dad, but I think things are going too quickly. He's over all the time and she's always out with him. I don't really know how to handle this whole thing. Am I supposed to welcome him with arms wide, or stand back and watch from a distance? I'm just not sure what I'm suppose to do here. He cares about us though, much more than Jason does. I'm just... well I'm lost. At a loss for words and a loss of feelings. To add on to that, my dad is sending e-mails to friends that my mom isn't all that she is cracked up to be, and that they don't know anything about her. I just don't understand how he can say stuff to that about a woman that he has known for 21 years of his life! I just don't understand him at all. My sisters seem to be really torn up about this, but it doesn't give them an excuse to go around and say the stuff that they did to my mom. They told her that she wasn't good enough for them, at least dad spent money on us, dad's the better parent, and much more. I also don't get how they can look at their mother and say stuff like that to her. They don't understand just how hard she is working to keep us afloat. She is working herself to the breaking point. She buys them things and then they just walk all over them. They don't respect the house enough to clean it up, or to even keep it clean. One of my closest friends even came over and cleaned it, and my sisters looked right at her as they dropped stuff on to the ground. The nerve of them! To top it all off, my 10 year old sister looked right at me and said, "Bitch. You are a self-centered little bitch." How dare she talk to me like that. She's swearing at only 10 years old too... no wonder why the youngest is walking around the house saying "biotch." Life just doesn't make sense to me any more.

On another note, I worked at the restaurant for 11 and a half hours on Sunday. That's a long day, and its even longer when you have to serve for the whole time without a break! I worked from 9am - 8:30pm. I have never been so tired in my life. I went home and had a bath to ease my aching muscles and ended up falling asleep in the bath. Thankfully I woke up undrowned, which is good. Would hate to go like that. Even today I'm still trying to fight off the tiredness from Sunday, yet here I am, yawning every two minutes. It doesn't matter what time I go to bed, no matter how early, I'm still tired the next morning. It is so hard to get out of bed, even harder than normal. I literally have to roll out of bed to be able to get up and get ready for school. That's one of the reasons why I keep my room so cold, because as soon as I toss off my warm blankets, I'm awake. Very wake. I also keep my room cold because I love the cold. I don't do too well with heat in the first place.

Hm... what else has happened to me? Well, besides everything with my family, not much has been going on in my life. I work, I deal with family issues (or at least try), I go to both my One Act rehearsals and the Musical rehearsals, and I hang out with friends. I feel like I hardly have any time to stop and breath, let alone have any alone time. The time I have to myself is spent on doing homework. I can't remember when I actually had a me day, or even a me moment. I have friends going through thinks and I would much rather help them then even think about myself. Maybe that's my problem, I'm too caring. But is there such think as being too caring? Am I not helping others? I just don't get it. I don't understand a lot of things. And I also find myself getting tired of playing strong, I want to be able to cry in front of my friends, let them comfort me. But its so hard, I find it very difficult to drop my mask of invisibility. My mask that says "nothing can harm me, so don't even try." Its getting heavier and heavier, and one day soon it is going to crack. Masks can only last so long before one has to build up another one. Brick walls fall too, even those that we place around in our heart. They have cracks that we don't notice, they just sit there and hope and pray that one day. someone is going to come around and notice it. Maybe then that person can work their way to our heart.